• 1/2 cup butter
  • 1 cup white sugar
  • 2 eggs
  • 1 teaspoon vanilla extract
  • 1/3 cup unsweetened cocoa powder
  • 1/2 cup all-purpose flour
  • 1/4 teaspoon salt
  • 1/4 teaspoon baking powder


  • 3 tablespoons butter, softened
  • 3 tablespoons unsweetened cocoa powder
  • 1 tablespoon honey
  • 1 teaspoon vanilla extract
  • 1 cup confectioners’ sugar


  1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees F (175 degrees C). Grease and flour an 8-inch square pan.
  2. In a large saucepan, melt 1/2 cup butter. Remove from heat, and stir in sugar, eggs, and 1 teaspoon vanilla. Beat in 1/3 cup cocoa, 1/2 cup flour, salt, and baking powder. Spread batter into prepared pan.
  3. Bake in preheated oven for 25 to 30 minutes. Do not overcook.
  4. To Make Frosting: Combine 3 tablespoons softened butter, 3 tablespoons cocoa, honey, 1 teaspoon vanilla extract, and 1 cup confectioners’ sugar. Stir until smooth. Frost brownies while they are still warm.

Chocolate Icing

For 3 layers cake

  • 1½ cups butter (3 sticks), softened
  • 1 cup unsweetened cocoa
  • 5 cups confectioner’s sugar
  • ½ cup milk
  • 2 teaspoons vanilla extract
  • ½ teaspoon espresso powder
Step 1: Add cocoa to a large bowl or bowl of stand mixer. Whisk through to remove any lumps.
Step 2: Cream together butter and cocoa powder until well-combined.
Step 3: Add sugar and milk to cocoa mixture by adding 1 cup of sugar followed by about a tablespoon of milk. After each addition has been combined, turn mixer onto a high speed for about a minute. Repeat until all sugar and milk have been added.
Step 4: Add vanilla extract and espresso powder and combine well.
If frosting appears too dry, add more milk, a tablespoon at a time until it reaches the right consistency.
If it appears too wet and does not hold its form, add more confectioner’s sugar, a tablespoon at a time until it reaches the right consistency.

Chocolate Cake


  • 475ml (16 fl oz) boiling water
  • 75g (3oz) cocoa
  • 350g (12 oz) plain flour
  • 2 teaspoons bicarbonate of soda
  • 1/2 teaspoon baking powder
  • 1/2 teaspoon salt
  • 225g (8oz) butter, softened
  • 450g (1 lb) caster sugar
  • 4 eggs
  • 1 1/2 teaspoons vanilla extract


Step 1: Preheat the oven to 180 degrees C (gas mark 4). Grease 3 – 23cm round cake tins.

Step 2: In a medium bowl, pour boiling water over cocoa and whisk until smooth. Let mixture cool.

Step 3: Sift together flour, bicarbonate of soda, baking powder and salt; set aside.

Step 4: In a large bowl, cream butter and sugar together until light and fluffy. Beat in eggs one at a time, then stir in vanilla. Then add cocoa mixture.

Step 5: Add the flour mixture alternately with the liquid mixture. Spread batter evenly between the 3 prepared tins.

Step 6: Bake in preheated oven for 25 to 30 minutes. Allow to cool before icing the top of each cake and sandwiching them together.

OMG Soft Batch Chocolate Chip Cookies! Pure Nirvana!

Delectable, insane, buttery, rich, thick, soft-batch chocolate chip cookies are pure “Nirvana”. You won’t want to miss out on these!

– 14 tablespoons unsalted butter, softened
– 1 cup granulated sugar
– ½ cup light brown sugar
– 2 eggs
– 1 teaspoon vanilla extract
– 2½ cups flour (+ a few extra tablespoons, see ** in directions below–I used 2 extra tablespoons)
– 1 teaspoon baking soda
– ½ teaspoon salt or sea salt
– 3 cups, any variation of chocolate chips or chocolate chunks

Step 1: Preheat the oven to 350 and line a few trays with baking paper or spray with non-stick spray.

Step 2: In a metal bowl, place the butter inside the bowl and place in the preheating oven.
Leave it just for a few minutes, until the butter starts to melt around the outside (approx ½ of the butter melted). Take out of oven to cool.

Step 3: Once the butter has cooled, add both sugars and beat with a mixer until light and fluffy.

Step 4: Add the vanilla and eggs, beating between each addition just until mixed.

Step 5: Add the flour, baking soda and salt or sea salt and beat on a low speed, just until combined.

**If needed, add more flour, a tablespoon at a time, until the dough comes together in a ball and not sticking to the sides of the bowl.

Step 6: Fold in the chocolate chips until just incorporated.

Step 7: Use an ice cream or cookie scoop (¼ cup for large, 1.5 tablespoons for medium) and drop the dough onto the prepared baking sheets, allowing room for spreading.

Step 8: Pat down cookies just a little and press additional chocolate chips on top of cookie dough if desired.

Step 9: Bake one tray of cookies at a time, for 10-12 minutes for large, 8-9 for small. Don’t over-bake and allow to cool on wire rack.

Makes 1 dozen large or 2 dozen small cookies.
Store cookies in air-tight container.

The perks of losing

Everyone is used to have or gonna have a period of time in their life that everything seems to be out of control, and yes that is me right now.

I used to have almost everything that they consider as success: a steady career, a bright future, a significant one to love and to be loved, and money was never my problem. And now, I have nothing left, I broke up a week ago, I was rejected from about three to four positions that I applied for, and even worse, was dumped by someone who does not even worth it.

It seemed like my life had became a mess with no way out and yes, I did feel like I am the most miserable human being at that moment. But then I looked around and saw everyone else, despite the failures they got in life, continued to live and strive for better things to come and I felt ashamed, as my problems compared to theirs, were nothing.

First, it was embarrassment that forced me to put aside my problems, but then later on it was the fact that everyone has to face this period at least once in their lifetime made me feel better. And then I realized, actually losing everything means that you now have everything, and that is the perks of losing it all.

Well, I now, have no jobs but it means that I have time to do things that I never or rarely did, like painting… Having little money helps me learn how to save and use it wisely… Having and being nobody’s significant one means that I need to love myself, cultivate and enjoy my own affair, and just be better version of myself.

I would not dare to do these things, if I were me a year ago, as I had so many things in my hands, and it was tiring because I was bounded by the idea of how to keep these things together as long as I can. When it reached the end, when everything I owned started to slip away despite every efforts I made to keep it back, besides the horror, I realized that there is a way open up for me to begin again.

And yes, I am in chaos now, but I am not afraid of it, as I know I am not alone, I still have my family, my friends and even more I have myself to rely on. As I have nothing now, I can start building myself again the way I want, not the way I was shaped in the past, bounded by what people supposed I am.

This is my very first post here and really what in my head now, it maybe messed up and meaningless, but I hope that someday, when I scroll back and see this post, I can smile happily and feel relief.

A day without joy, 2017